I need more Christian bros.

These past few years, my Christian life has been lonely.

Maybe I’ve been looking and searching in the wrong places.

My big prayer request: -guide me to a group brothers that are genuine

I always wanted to be in the military. The idea of being so passionately dedicated to a program appealed to me. West Point was always in the back of my mind. But my resume did not stack up. For me to get accepted, well that would take a miracle.

Fast forward a year or two and I’m in Rutgers, I see men in the ROTC uniform; later on i learned they’re called ACUs. As i see them walking around in College Ave, it made me look into the program. Instantly, I joined. 

Week 1: I was so exhausted. Not physically. The physical portion was very simple. Track practices from freshmen year were more difficult. Mentally, i was exhausted. Mentally, i wanted to break down. Mentally, i was fatigued and i regretted everything in my life.

My grades dropped, I fell asleep in nearly every class, I’m behind on homework

After 1 week, I’ve decided that military isn’t for me. Physically it was simple, but mentally it turned me into a hot mess.

I felt miserable after PTs. Yet, I see the other cadets and they’re living the life after PTs.

For those serving out there, I have developed a whole new respect. The men and women out there are mentally prepared and mentally fit. 

Thank you ROTC for a week of new experiences. It taught me a lot.

Men and women across the nation that are serving, thank you.

Ever since I’ve moved in, I’ve gradually stopped listening to John Mayer and more classical. Don’t get me wrong, I still love to sit back, close my eyes, and blast the JM as I air guitar. However, lately, it’s more classical playlist and more guitar instrumentals rather than JM. It’s more soothing, and it hits the spot. The perfect fusion of relaxing music and studying music. and that’s hard to combine, relaxing and studying. 

Is this what growing up means? listening to some Brahms and Liszt? 

But legit, I’ve been listening to some Tommy Emmanuel. Oh my. What he produces = chill.
Lately, it’s been tough to get re-inspired to learn some new stuff on the guitar. After learning most of JM’s song, I’ve been at the same level for a while (years). It feels like my acoustic finger-style skill has been at a plateau. But I think I’ve found my new inspiration to re-learn. Tommy Emmanuel is the shit.

… but do i even have time to practice?


1 John 4:20-21 (NIV)

20 Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. 21 And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister.


Tomorrow will be different

Tomorrow will be full of excitement

Tomorrow will be full of questions

Tomorrow will be exhausting

Tomorrow will be a new chapter

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